Fleeting tactics, To those eyes

2010-01-19T08:31:00.001-08:00

White Lies vs. Brutal Honesty

Bored. Anyway quite positive that i won't be updating this blog anymore. No more purpose already.
Haha good luck on studying/working fellow friends!
Good day good night. See you again.

2009-12-30T07:02:00.000-08:00

Close your eyes and think of the world.
What do you see?
To me my world isn't just shapes.

2009-12-15T08:57:00.000-08:00

Familiarity?

Whats up with familiarity? Ofc its natural we enjoy being with someone familiar. Familiar face , familiar voice and these things can be understood without being overly expressed. Surely , I do treasure this kind of familiarity , since that not everyone can be close with us. So does this means this kind of familarity would make you tolerate to any kind of mistakes or disagreements?
I happened to experience this kind of dilemma.
Surely these familiarity is gona end soon. For me i guess. Maybe an ending will lead to a new beginning. I just had to keep my fingers crossed and hoped for the best.
I am by nature not born good-looking and rich. So i guess waiters won't give me extra kind services, teachers won't give me extra marks, friends don't give me extra damn. I am always envious of those who are by nature lucky. Eg, good looking people and those who does not have to worry about money.
I thought to myself. Is this work of karma? Does this means those people had done alot good deeds in their past life? So i guess i weren't tht good in my pastlife afterall.
Well i dun care what my pastlife is about really. What really matters is here and now, and also the future.
No people should give in to the nature and the world is never fair.

I stand alone tough.

I might have tears,

but I am strong.

With wings,

Fly.

2009-10-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

上帝遺棄我們
卻又要給黯淡的月
照亮世界
要我們無盡又無情的繁衍
看愛過的人一一告別做過的夢
一一凋謝只留下我獨自殘喘的千年

青春遺忘我們
卻又要給
回憶的美
就像玫瑰
要餘生流血又流淚的受虐
看鏡中的臉慢慢枯萎高舉的拳
漸漸粉碎只留下了無限唏噓的相片

SPM so near.

2009-08-21T09:44:00.000-07:00

2009-08-20T07:11:00.000-07:00

The Fool is the card of infinite possibilities.

Life we walk seems often dark
Like wandering in a maze through stormy night
Pitch black streets felt a piercing chill
But we continue walking because we will

Whoever we pleased, whoever we cheered
Whoever is closest, or merely just new?
So many options we need to make
So many broken hearts we seem to create

But that’s life written in many books
Some we have read some overlooked
Strange as it may seem, is weirder when we tell
The victim is us, when we all fell

Life is just like that
Whether you like it or not
Full of choices and deception
If not careful, a wrong step you’ll rot

Must applaud the choice you have made
A crowd’s roar on your faith
I will be here till the end
At the edge of time I will wait

2009-08-11T03:09:00.000-07:00

1. We are masters of our fate.
2. Theory of predestiny is false
3. To accept the fact that life is full of uncertainties
4. Without troubles and challenges , life is not worth living.
5 There is thrill in accept and overcoming them in life.
6. Success in life is a reward for hardwork.
7. Sorrow and happiness are a part of life.
8. Human's reason counters all.

2009-08-01T03:13:00.000-07:00

Life's too short
Grudges are waste of perfect happiness
Laugh when you can
Apologize when you should
and let go of what you cant change
Love deeply and forgive quickly
Take chances and gives everything
and have NO regrets
life is just too short to be unhappy
you have to take the good with the bad
Smile when you are sad. even it can be bloody tiring.

Love what you got
and always remember what you had
and forgive but never forget
learn from your mistakes
people just change and things go wrong
but never regret
I am searching for nothing at all i guess
Faith and Misery
i won't give up just yet.
LIFE GOES ON

Happiness is just like a butterfly which when pursued is just beyond your grasp but if you will sit down quietly, it may alight upon you.
Happiness is like a butterfly. the more you chase it , the more it will elude you.
If you turn your attention to other things , it comes and softly sits on your shoulder.
BUT
Faint heart never won fair lady
Good luck , friend.

And i believe i still look happy with what i have now.

Even to live in denial

A dream is never worth the dream of being known
Inside dreams never come true 'til the day he dies
Victimizes himself, cries for lord for the lucid love.
I t's gotta be many secrets, he's blessed with the plague and singing a song
It's all about giving and moving along
Now it's love what is this?

2009-07-26T04:21:00.001-07:00

Simple Plan - I'm Just A Kid lyrics

I woke up it was 7
I waited til 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I've got alot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending every day on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go & they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me

What the fuck is wrong with me
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored & I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid
I'm just a kid

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world
Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me tonight
I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cuz I'm just a kid tonight

I am just a KID! =D

2009-07-24T05:00:00.000-07:00

I am not gonna pollute my blog.
Random thoughts

I don't understand why people get so busybody?
I don't understand why people be such attention whore?
I don't understand why people act as 'emos'?
I don't understand why people act differently behind our back
I don't understand why some people's presence can be exasperating
I don't understand why people are so fake
I don't understand why people so loose
I don't understand why people can seem to be so harmless.
I don't understand why people be such hypocrite
I don't understand why people can be so devious
I don't understand why people can be so shrewd
I don't understand what is life
I don't understand what is reality

2009-07-18T01:20:00.000-07:00

Emoness is contagious.
Conclusion : Do not emo.
Senyuman itu penawar duka. Maka senyumlah. =)

2009-07-15T07:50:00.000-07:00

Errr i not emo la. Theres a happy scary side. See see

Haha Okayyyy Its abit weird to do this but.
Blogging about my own birthday?

Okay so yeah i Wana To thank ALL of you who wishes and make my day great. thanks alot my friends!!!

Firstly we had a early celebration on Friday. I haven get pictures during the lunch so yeah. was very satisfied with the candid taken. Look kinda nerdy.

Not forgetting Tbc , Thanks alot ya. Yal rock!

Proceeding to Tuesday.
I hafta say Ssi really celebrate birthdays greatly. Haha And a shoutout to Edy.
THANKS ALOTS! Even i cant really help you much in your the situation now I hope u would be better yeah.

Haha sorry dun wana put the card picture. The first picture in front was kinda embarassing. =S

And oh yeah. I got aluba. Chey its a cmoon thing i think. It was during cutting cake until half. Lifted from nowhere. =(. Today kena pour water plus my neck kena. Concluded SSI aluba was much more scarier than SDJ. I have better time there. Safer. But the celebration no tht hangat. So it was worth it. Hahaha!

Nites ppl and thanks again. Gniteeee!

2009-07-05T07:49:00.000-07:00

I'm about as straight an arrow as you'll find out there.

For people who birth on month July below are What Your Birth Month Says About You :

* Fun to be with
* Secretive
* Difficult to fathom and to be understood
* Quiet unless excited or tensed
* Takes pride in oneself
* Has reputation
* Easily consoled
* Honest
* Concern about people´s feelings
* Tactful
* Friendly
* Approachable
* Very emotional
* Tempramental and unpredictable
* Moody and easily hurt
* Witty and sarky
* Sentimental
* Not revengeful
* Forgiving but never forgets
* Dislike nonsensical and unnecessary things
* Guides others physically and mentally
* Sensitive and forms impressions carefully
* Caring and loving
* Treats others equally
* Strong sense of sympathy
* Wary and sharp
* Judge people through observations
* Hardworking
* No difficulties in studying
* Loves to be alone
* Always broods about the past and the old friends
* Likes to be quiet
* Homely person
* Waits for friends
* Never looks for friends
* Not aggressive unless provoked
* Prone to having stomach and dieting problems
* Loves to be loved
* Easily hurt but takes long to recover
* Overly concerned
* Puts in effort in work

2009-07-04T01:37:00.000-07:00

Its gone
And done

2009-07-02T23:08:00.000-07:00

It just slip through my fingertips

I got St john Service Trip 09 Disc today. I think i got cheated.

Have a nice day.

2009-07-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

Sometimes I can see myself running.
But what am I running from?
I'm running from life.
No that is more like escaping
It's impossible to get away.
Sometimes I wish I could just close my eyes,
And then things would be different.
I just want to be somebody.
I don't know if I can, but I'll try.
I've messed up in my life more then once.
But at least I'm still alive.
But do I want to be?
Yes . I do.
People mess up all the time.
It's no reason to just run away.
If you do, your problems will wait for you.
You just gotta move on.
You have to except what you've done.
Just can't sit and feel sorry for yourself.
Life's not that bad.
It's what you make it out to be.
There will be good and bad times.
Sometimes more bad then good.
Either way it's life.
I would never want to change my life.
Even though I've messed up in the past.
I think it made me a stronger person.
So instead of running,
I'll stay and take life as it is.

2009-06-29T03:04:00.001-07:00

It isn’t my destiny to begin with

Its been a long time since I really wrote in my blog. Most of time it would be some random pictures with caption. I have a poor command of English u see. If ‘golongan-golongan intelek Inggeris’ come visit my blog , I am sure their response would be terrible horrible vegetable.

Anyway, my post today is basically a response to Wilson’s blog post. Since I hang around of my time with Shaun and Wilson, I would write about both of them.

I know Shaun since primary one and Wilson since Form 1. I recall how obedient and quiet was Shaun long ago. But I really dun know what happen now. Haha kidding. No offence. I do not have a very good impression of Wilson when he’s in form one. I always thought that he was loud and exasperating. But yeah I guess I was wrong about both of them.

These two highly intelligence superior being should be taken lightly. I feel pressurized whenever I was with them. Inferior complexity? Nah kidding. For example, a ‘stupid’ action or a wrong pronunciation would last for days, months or even years.

Pranksters. I dun remember having peace at any toilet unless I can lock the doors. No, even I lock the doors, water still would be pour in. And of course I remember that time I got a special hair cut from you, Yee Jin Shaun. Wilson, the leader of happy corner team did not spare me for the previous years.

Nah in fact there aren’t much bad things to write about… Err okay so lets move to the “good things” No sarcastic.

Let’s start with games. Shaun in fact helped me a lot in games. When he introduced me to .A , he was really kinda patient with my noob skill. “Steady”, he would wait for me to start game when my father hijacked my computer. Wilson helped me in ping pong piang. He used to represent our school? Or went higher levels? I dun remember di. Oh yeah these two person is very cooperative when it comes to ‘MOTIVATING’ me and basketball. And yes, I learnt a lot about basketball from you guys.

In studies, both of them excel way way above me. Wilson is much more diligence than me. That’s why everyday I would get a sms asking “Today got what homework?”

Okay la I tired already. In conclusion, these are the few steady ones that assist me a lot in my life. Aren’t you guys flattered? Flattery is like bubblegum. Enjoy it but dun swallow it okay? Hahaha. Byee

la

2009-06-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

happy birthday Daryl and Lisa
(:

2009-06-21T01:35:00.000-07:00

Went school on Saturday. Was kinda bored. Some Pertandingan perbahasan was going on there. But yeah so my friends come over kind of early to play basketball.

2009-05-30T09:53:00.000-07:00

To the holidays! Oh well. /:
Enjoy the temporary freedom while it still last.

We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it ????

2009-05-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

2009-04-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

Sushi king

Ate too much gua.

Okay so we went library and did our moral project!

Conclusion : Living room is the nicest part. So well designed. wondered who did it. =

He looks happy.

Random

Before

After

2009-04-04T06:10:00.000-07:00

St john commnity service trip

Its bored staying at home anyways so i decided to follow on the community service trip. Its my last year anyway. I stick with Daryl and Gideon most of the time.

In conclusion , the trip was tiring but worth it. See my smile. Isn't it convincing , is it?
Will update more if i get more pictures. =>

2009-03-28T07:44:00.000-07:00

Looking at the other side. The left one ofc

Directions: once you have been tagged,you have to write a post in your blog with sixteen random things, facts, habits or goal about you...at the end choose ten people to be tagged, list out their names and why you tagged them...don't forget to leave them a comment(you're it)and to read your blog.you can't tag the person who have tagged you...since you can't tag me , you must let me noe when you will post that in your blog to let me see your weirdness and your behaviour..haha..good luck!!

1. Never blames wilson or shaun for sai-ing me. Sort of a form of motivation.
2. Eating more and more everyday
3. Loves physics the most of three science subjects
4. Loves to see Reuben's stoning face but hates Reuben for not buying IU tickets from me.
6. Considered not really friendly and anti-social but wilson, i din tarik harga
8. Hopes for straight A' for SPM and not to be look down cause i am from SDJ.
9. Hopes to meet up with Wei Jian again one fine day.
10. I look down on people who are 'fake' and dirt cheap
11. I hardly confine in anybody. In fact , i dun.
12. Loves to see ding shuffle in class with the obama magazine on his face.
13. Shocked when someone said i look like a rabbit.
14. Loves to see people squating down.
15. Dislikes being used.

2009-03-25T08:12:00.001-07:00

Oh somewhere deep inside of these bones
An emptiness began to grow
There's something out there far from my home
A longing love that I've never known

Theres an empty place in my bones
That calls out for something unknown
The fame and praise come year after year
Does nothing for these empty tears

Behind the perfect facade

I guess he was right. He got the last laugh after all.

Of a devastating change

2009-03-17T06:53:00.000-07:00

Yet again so many changes are there in life. I could see them just in my life's reflection. Occuring every now and then. I am suppose to write an essay on title "Change" but my mind just went blank.

Its form 5 now. I learnt to let go alot of things. Indifferent on most of the things which eventually cause less depression on me. Haha. Btw its really time to get serious in study. Else i gona fall way to the bottom. Most of my cousins are straight A' student so i cant be the black sheep right.

So yeah just went. I DUN KNOW AND I DUN CARE

And at least a smile. It isn't too hard is it?

2009-03-10T07:38:00.000-07:00

St.John Orientation.
Not blogging about it ba.

Kinsahi
Hello my dearest SSI friends. Whats with the 'wooo'? Its my cousin okay.

Fate
The meeting of two souls are the beginning of destiny whereas the parting shows that the end of their destiny. Oh well for me I do greatly appreciate sincere friends. These people are like gems among the stones of my life. They are rare , hard to keep and so need to be treasured and preserved , not exploited or misused. With them beside me , life's problems are not beyond solution and the joys we enjoy are multiplied manifolds. Life is infinitely richer in the company of good friends.

I realized what i had been seeing was only limited to my very circle of friends. It good to have someone giving me third person view and stuff like that. Else i would be blinded by tears soon enough.

Haha anyway i dunu what am i writing also.
Looking forward to Sg trip

2009-03-05T08:01:00.001-08:00

My days in SSI

Is GG.DOT.COM

With presence of Wilson?

Wilson? I am happy that he came to my class man. My days would be really BORING without him. Wilson damn steady one. He tells me EVERYTHING. Presence of Wilson also entertains me. Sai me and critise me. Critism creates motivation what.

~~Okay. Enough lies about this guy.~~

Studying in SSI is definitely a different environment than studying in SDJ. Du-uh. Days of shouting “woohoo” aloud is over I guess. SSI students pressurize me alot i guess.

When i came to this school , SSI people are friendly i guess? Mostly familiar faces everywhere. Same primary school gua. Daryl haven change one bit. Lol

2009-02-13T04:52:00.000-08:00

Valentine is just but another passing day.

Happy valentine

2009-01-30T00:13:00.000-08:00

Decided to blog again?
Change add coz too long?
One of their reaction is like ' Why so sad?' while laughing. u Know who yal are.

SSI
So yeah i changed school. Cant really say much yet though. but got wilson...damn niceeee =(

CNY

Each dance ang pao Rm 288. Not cheap huh

2009-01-04T05:55:00.000-08:00

I sense there's something in the wind
That feels like tragedy's at hand

And though I'd like to stand by her
Can't shake this feeling that I have
The worst is just around the bend

And does she notice my feelings for her?
And will she see how much she means to me?
I think it's not to be

What will become of my dear friend?
Where will her actions lead us then?

Although I'd like to join the crowd
In their enthusiastic cloud

Try as I may, it doesn't last
And will we ever end up together?

No, I think not, it's never to become
For I am not the one

2008-12-25T07:14:00.000-08:00

Boys and girls of every age
Don't you feel something strange?

Merry christmas

2008-12-17T00:00:00.000-08:00

2008-12-13T08:23:00.000-08:00

I had a dream no one else had, I threw away everything I didn't need
I can't surrender the feelings I have kept in my heart

Even if I'm still between the real and ideal, and my feet have fallen victim to shackles
These overflowing impulses cannot be suppressed because my heart still strongly yearns

"Lies" "Fear" "Vanity" "Grief", I'm not so weak as
To be seized by such negativity, I'm a trickster that doesn't know solitude

I look up at the buildings that pierce the night sky, the stars and such in space invisible
"Will I be lost?" I wonder

The whole town overflowing with tainted people, I won't be lured by such things
Because I want to see something grab my hand at the end of the road connected to tomorrow

My eyes close and I surface in a sea of consciousness
That's when I obtain the ideals I've pictured

Merely receiving life in the world and withering away is just as stupid as dying
I must obtain what no one else can, the crystal called "oneself"

Piercing through simplicity will one day change to the truth
I want to continue believing in it. It's just my faith, the absolute truth

In the flowing time a momentary sparkle twinkles
I keep walking to engrave the world's memories, a believer

2008-12-10T06:42:00.000-08:00

elona

2008-12-10T06:10:00.001-08:00

Holidays

2008-11-29T07:22:00.000-08:00

Nothing much to do
Gaming much

Isn't It Beautiful?

The wind, like a heart that swam in the accumulated words
The clouds, a voice that was shot into the holding future

The moon, a shaking heart in an unsteady mirror
The stars, gentle tears in an overflowing stream

Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

That heart,
held within your body
In those confusing nights
I dream

The wind, its halting words are a gentle illusion
The clouds, the broken future like a distant voice

The moon, a heart flowing in the clouded mirror
The stars, broken and swaying, like tears unable to be hidden.

Isn't it beautiful, to walk together in each others hands
I do so want to go,
To your city, your house, into your arms.

That face,
A soft touch,
Dissolving into morning,
I dream.

Yorrs

2008-11-11T01:41:00.001-08:00

~~Listening to Ah Mei's songs light bathing Feeling empty today, Looking at the velvet sky~~ Aiya...U made me realise my mistake. I guess i cant write the angel's style.

Holiday's here. This means i am free from school!! ~~and also B@ngla's critism~~

Ladyluck wasn't at my side. I think i did pretty badly for my exam and i lost my spec. How bad can that be?

Formula of a bad blog
(bad/boring in describing their activities/ L@l@/ Pictures ONLY or almost the whole thing/ language massacre/f****d up background/childish/song lyrics only/anything bad you can name of) + Auto play (music) = Bad Blog (EPIC PHAIL! t(-.-t) F**ktastic!)

From Nelo's blog http://www.beef-a-lion.blogspot.com/

I guess its refering to my blog?

Wei jian wei jian. i wonder what happen to you now? Must be kok chin la. Din know it can be so sad. Why u learn from him? Nevermind. Now i will bring you back to your own humble ways.

Oh btw talkign about angels. We have one online angel here. Definitely not Ivan. He is very obedient during the exam. Really! ~~caught twice~~

So yeah nothing to write about di. So yeah Happy holidays.

2008-11-07T03:02:00.001-08:00

Free-IQTest.net - IQ Test

Something for Nothing

2008-11-03T02:59:00.000-08:00

End of the line

P.S: TO someone(NOT B@NGLA) dun comment about this.

Zzz

2008-10-27T21:28:00.000-07:00

Interesting Stuff

Saw them at lavender

Welcome to Sdj

2008-10-26T01:47:00.000-07:00

Lol i would like to post bout cheating in sdj k. XD

First level
Simple discussion during exam

Second level
Exchange of notes during exam. Communicating through handphones.

Third level
Hidden notes under testpad

Fourth level
Notes typed and picture of notes in handphones

Fifth level
U CAN REFER TO TEXTBOOK during sejarah exam. =)

Sixth level
A textbook is put under ur test paper. =S

Anybody wan come my school?

RAWR!!!!!

2008-10-26T01:40:00.000-07:00

Hi world.

I am so bored so i decided to blog. XD

Okay i would like to introduce my new specs.

Super thick frame okay. Can shoot lasers wan

Based on bernard lim , after my wearing my spec , would have to smile like this. =.=

Photo posted with approval?

But too bad he wasn't the perfect model for my uber nice specs. Thanks

And oh yeah shaun, i have a kim possible watch that can turn turn turn. Got lasers also

4 Science Biology

2008-10-09T05:59:00.001-07:00

Call them acquaintances

Click on the picture to enlarge it.

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-09-26T06:10:00.000-07:00

I gonna turn into my kind!!! *Bites*

resistance is futile

see crying now. You poor sweet innocent thing

WARNING

Rated R for strong graphic bloody violence, sexual assaults, grisly images and language

Its LEE YEE SIANG BIRTHDAY!!!!!

One of the most 'shiok' aluba moment in history.

Happy 16th birthday to lee ***'s son !!!

Something about my horoscope?

2008-09-24T07:48:00.000-07:00

Positive Traits :
IMAGINATION
AFFECTION
INSIGHT
CARING
TENACITY
CAUTION

Negative Traits :
AVARICE
POSSESSIVENESS
IRRITABILITY
MOODINESS
HYPERSENSITIVITY
DESPONDENCY

Emotion is the pitfall of Cancer people. As changeable as their ruler, the Moon, these subjects may shift in minutes from stable, normal, "happy" individuals into victims of deep navy blue feelings of gloom and doom. There's a quality of charming despair in Cancerian moodiness which can not only break hearts, but can sometimes actually win them.

Cancers make fabulous partners for home-loving people. The Cancer's nest is where he feels safest and at his most secure. As security is the main preoccupation of most Cancers, a good home with comfy furnishings, a few kids and dogs and a built-in wall safe is about the best thing that can happen to them. In this atmosphere of cushions and curtains Cancer thrives. For the Cancer subject, home is love is home is love, etc.

Cancers are good at making money; they hold executive positions and assume responsibilities with aplomb. You will rarely find a poor-but-happy Cancer. Cancerians very SELDOM decide to throw it all up and become a hippie or a freelance bohemian. They don't necessarily like the system or the constraints it places on them, but of all the signs of the Occidental zodiac, Cancers are the most capable of placing nose to dull old grindstone and keeping it there. The Cancer wants comfort for himself, but he also enjoys providing for his family in a generous way.

Cancers are traditionalists. Where you might have hung a supremely abstract painting over your mantelpiece, the Cancer will have put portraits of his dour-looking grandparents, which he dug out of the attic because nobody else wanted them. They will surely be framed in antique frames and will hold the place or honor in Cancer's heart. Cancer prefers antiques to formica and longs for his son or daughter to become a doctor, a lawyer or a sure-fire accountant.

If you have a Cancer for a friend, you know what loyalty and devotion mean. Cancer people usually make their friends young and keep them for life. And, as Cancers are fairly intransigent, they are easily hurt if the friends in question do not return their devotion. They will forgive. But Cancers never forget.

If someone asked me to describe the worst aspect of Cancer subjects, I would not say "moods" or "grabbiness." Instead I would have to speak of the Cancer's tendency to hypersensitivity. Cancer is easily offended and susceptible to criticism the way six-year-olds are susceptible to chicken pox. A tiny word of criticism can bring on one of Cancer's legendary moods and the criticizer may go on the black list for quite a long time.

Cancers are jealous too. They own the people they live with and are possessive to a fault about their loved ones. They are not, however, tyrannical about this weakness. The idea is NOT "I bought you and therefore I own you." No. It's more like "I love you so much and care so profoundly that I cannot believe you dared be attracted to that other (less serious) person." Cancer is also easily hurt by cutting remarks. In love, Cancer gives his all. It's impossible for him to understand someone who doles out their love in tiny eye-dropper doses.

An element of emoness?

2008-09-17T07:13:00.000-07:00

Post requested by B@ngla , I'm suppose to wrtie this post as very gloomy and sad? So what if it is true or not? Who cares? Yea i may sound like an angel now.

Ok so here goes
We begin chatting today at physic lesson.
These were what they actually said

L.S : When I'm at form 1 or 2 i'm still okay. I am not that sozai as now? With my bowl like hair cut.
B@ngla : The turning point started when i'm form 4? The route not taken it seem he explained.
He did said too , " I lost to Satan , brought my friend away. I will pray and bring him to church more often"
L.B : What The H , E , C , K had happened to me. I started asking where i when wrong. I'm me. Sha de ren , sha only no wrong he explained further.

So to fulfill B@ngla wish , i shall write more
Yes after that conversation it really put in deep thoughts. B@ngla used to say i am too sozai when i'm in school but when i started not talking , he would say i acting cool. He just wonders why can't i be normal? Honestly i really should be upset? or not? i dunu? but i would just smile? well not really. I'm not the type who would express myself? I dunu

Oh ya before i forget about my 'turtle shell'. Its just so that i won't slouch that much. Yea i have a very unusual taste in everything? L.S said bout my hair cut when in form 1 and 2 , bout the way i wear my bag and the type of music i hear? I guess I'm me. Photo taken by our cameraman at school , LS.

Post Directed by : B@ngla

Who Would Guess It?!?!

2008-09-02T07:46:00.000-07:00

So CLS Society organised a trip to KL , Genting and Sin Chew Newspaper factory.
Did quite alot thinking at Kl though

It is Morning waiting for bus. All eyes on PSP

Wee Times Square

A high class place?

My fussy choice?

Random Choice

I dunno wads ber doing also

Omg just look at this

Thats Wong and Tai. We just drinking some tea.

We Reach Our Hotel. It is called Tunes. The two pic above interests me

Wee We Went to Sakae Sushi For Another dinner?

Lee Yee Siang got style okay

Different styles of taking pictures

One of the cutest in Ten Animal Kingdom Smtg smtg

Going up

Wee flyign coaster. I dropped my heart there

Coming down

Teacher son's was so cute and smart. He knows the song we sing everywhere.

Lastly , HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MR EDY LIEW HERN YI!!
Aluba in action!!

Video section!!

Wee Leaked vidoe of the lastest mv XD XD

This is wad happens when somebody comes to our room

Happy birthday song to EDY. haha abit too dark

Cute ppl singing LEE *** X3

Sleepover at Lao Bernard's house. XD

2008-08-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

Ok was at leisure before watching Dun mess with the Zohan .

The first one to get K.O
Wake up for 2nd round but
Round 2. K.O again. ON the floor.

Benjamin with his new hair. Lol

Virtua cop 2

:D :D :D

2008-08-17T05:16:00.000-07:00

Rawrrrrr

Online , Bored.

2008-08-12T06:05:00.000-07:00

TAGGED
Starting time: 9.10pm
Name:IlikeUlike
Sisters: 1
Brothers: 0
Shoe size: 8.8
Height: 170+
Where do you live: Tmn Daya
Favourite drinks: Ice Lemon Tea
Favourite breakfast: Egg?
Have you ever been on a plane?: Yea
Swam in the ocean: nope
Fallen asleep at school: Yea
Broken someone's heart: Definitely No?
Fell off your chair: Sure
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: Yea?
Saved e-mails: Some
What is your room like: Small?
What's right beside you: Bottle?
What is the last thing you ate: Rice?
Ever had chicken pox: Yea
Sore throat: Yea
Stitches: No
Broken nose: No
Do you believe in love at first sight: Errr yea?
Like picnics: Dunu
Who was the last person you danced with: camp peeps
Last made you smile: See wilson's tag?
You last yelled at: In the class? I dunu everyone was yelling so i follow
*
Today did you:
Talk to someone you like: Nope
Kissed anyone: nope
Get sick: nope
Talk to an ex: I dun have
Miss someone: Yea?
Eat: Duh?
Best feeling in the world: Happy? Duh?
Do you sleep with stuffed animals: No
What's under your bed: My comics?
Who do you really hate: Ppl talk alot?
What time is it now?: 9.18pm
*
Random:
Is there a person who is on your mind now:Yea?
Do you want children: Yes?
Do you smile often: Yea?
Do you like your hand-writing: Okay la
Are your toe nails painted: Yea when small?
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in:I dunno?
What color shirt are you wearing now: Red
What were you doing at 7:00 p.m. yesterday: Sleeping
When did you cry last: Few weeks?
Are you a friendly person: I dun think so
Do you have any pets: Nope
Where is the person you have feelings for right now?: Where else?
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now?:Yea ofc. Known HIM for ten years jor
Do you sleep with the TV on?:No
What are you doing right now?: Doing this?
Have you ever crawled through a window?:Yea?
Can you handle the truth?: No really. I will run.
Are you too forgiving?: No i dun think so
Are you closer to your mother or father?: same same lar
Who was the last person you cried in front of?: my frens(yawned)
How many people can you say you've really loved?: Errrr
Do you eat healthy?: Yea i dun eat mcdonald(response to ber's answer)
Do you still have pictures of you & your ex?:I dun have ex!!
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you?: Well no. sad? duh?
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to?: No i dun have guts
Are you loud or quiet most of the time?: loud most of the time and quiet most of the time
Are you confident?: No really.
*
5 things I was doing 10 years ago:
1. celebrating my 6th birthday..
2. celebrating my friend's 6th birthday..
4. celebrating my friend's 6th birthday..
5. celebrating my friend's 6th birthday..

5 things on my to-do list today:
1.Go online
2.See blog
3.Sleep.
4.sleep.
5.sleep.

5 snacks I enjoy:
-
5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
-

5 of my bad habits:
-

5 people I tag:
1. Ivan
2. Tragedy-hantus
3. Fat cow
4. Collin
5. Edy

Introducing 4SnBiology And some friends

2008-08-09T07:08:00.000-07:00

Welcome to Lalaland

Gideon , Giddy , looked like Pakistan.

Ahmad Mubarak , Got astro Knows how to sing Never Too late. Modern Malay!

Most left , Rong Xin , Tall , good in basketball
Beside rongxin , jie han(blocked), tall , good in volleyball?
Between jie and juncong , Wei sheng , tall , volleyball
Beside juncong(right) aravind , he dun smoke at all
Yellow shirt , Jian ying , new to our class? nah its more than half year di

This is not bangla. Street-wise

Edy liew , Ketua kelas , leadership , emo?

Armand , Half partner in quoting. One of the knockers

(left) Koh Lin , dance pro , St.John.

Juncong, Pengerusi pbSM

Tai , SM of pbSM

Shauny , Brainy , Lengzhai , chick magnet , dota and bb pro

Shaun's dog , named Baobei? to me Aslan

Man Hong , Cancer like me?

Tan Wei Jian , Muscle Freak!!! , One of the knockers

Lee Yee Siang , errr penolong , famous cause of his father and big nose?

Bernard Lim!!! , Rubik cube freak!! Chess master?

Angel Van? , Ketua masak , dun play

Bangla isn't in this pic
Most left , Benjamin , Shuffle Prince.
Beside me , Min jue PBSM , Dota pro?

Those i dun have the pic i din't write ah

All that awaits me is a somber morrow

2008-08-02T08:28:00.001-07:00

KOPERAL TEST!!!

Tiring day , went church for the first time. A breath of fresh air i guess.

See the pic below. Thats why i hate PBSM. XD eh shhh i still wan koperal de

left hand , Razor pro , ilikeulike. Back , i'm gay. Right hand, kira sucks

i will just these k cause others are all obscenities

What joy are there in this curse

2008-07-29T04:48:00.000-07:00

Oh man the video file corrupted somehow lol
Sry guys

Gloomy Sunday

2008-07-27T05:17:00.000-07:00

Sunday is gloomy,
My hour are slumberless
Dearest, the shadows
I live with are numberless
Little white flowers will never awaken you
Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you
Angels have no thought of ever returning you
Would they be angry if I thought of joining you
Gloomy Sunday
Sunday is gloomy
with shadows I spend it all
My heart and I have decided to end it all
Soon there’ll be flowers and prayers that are
sad I know let them not weep
,Let them know that I’m glad to go
Death is no dream,
For in death I’m caressing you
With the last breath of my soul
I’ll be blessing you
Gloomy Sunday
DreamingI was only dreaming
I wake and I find you
Asleep in the deep of
My heart
Dear
Darling I hope that my dream never haunted you
My heart is telling you how much I wanted you
Gloomy Sunday

P.s : I don't like mummies , they never play fair

Life , nonentity

2008-07-18T05:53:00.000-07:00

Life in science lab.

what a carefree school huh

Death is no dream

2008-07-17T05:27:00.000-07:00

the life and times of sdj

credits to a profesional videographer

Random random boredness , sunday is gloomy , no i mean monday

2008-07-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

Denial of failure

My rosy is dead
My dream is dead
And this monstrous thing should be at the bottom of the river
Along with me
Something
In my head
Something talking

The chip
Gone
*silent whispers* Rebuild
No...

Peter was right
I miscalculated
I couldn't have miscalculated
IT was working , wasn't it
Yes..

I can rebuild a larger make it bigger and stronger than ever
We need money
Steal it
No , No, NO
I am not a criminal
Thats right
A real crime would be not to finish what we started

We do it here
The power of the sun in the palm of my hand
Nothing will stand in our way
Nothing

Costume

Still no words about your son's fiancee , sorry Johhny
It's all my fault
I drover spiderman away
Who was the only one could've stuck up the TVs
Yes
Spiderman was a hero
I just couldn't see it

*stealing of costume*

He was... A THIEF A CRIMINAL!!

*message: Courtesy , your friendly neighborhood spiderman*

HE STOLE MY SUIT
Get him on the streets of the entire city
I wan that robber prosecuted
I wan him strangled up by his web
I WAN SPIDERMANNNN!!!

P.S : Thx people!!!!

Hi world!!!

2008-07-06T03:53:00.000-07:00

THX PEOPLE!! XD

The things you own up end up owning you!!

2008-07-04T08:36:00.000-07:00

Yeah 3rd bdae pressie in my life?

Crisis madness

2008-06-30T08:49:00.000-07:00

Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess

We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface

The wandering soul knows no rest.

Loveless

Act I

Hmph , You remembered

How can i not

When u have beaten it into my head

Don't take Sephiroth lightly

Hmph , Noted it

Haa

Is that the best you can do

All hail Sephiroth ha?

NGO

Stay back

I will take Sephiroth alone

Genesis

The world needs a hero

Hmph , come and try

So smug

But for how long

Stop
You will destroy us all

Thats no way to talk to a hero

Enough

NGO

Out of my way

Genesis

Just a scrap , I will be fine

Dun worry

Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Somehow a poetic bone and i did not write those

2008-06-29T20:20:00.000-07:00

Loveless

Prologue
When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end
The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar
She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting

Act I
Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess
We seek it thus, and take it to the sky
Ripples form on the water’s surface
The wandering soul knows no rest.

Act II
There is no hate, only joy
For you are beloved by the goddess
Hero of the dawn,
Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul
Pride is lost
Wings stripped away, the end is nigh

Act III
My friend, do you fly away now?
To a world that abhors you and I?
All that awaits you is a somber morrow
No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desireIs the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return

Act IV
My friend, the fates are cruel
There are no dreams, no honor remains
The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance
Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey
In my own salvation
And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak
Of sacrifice at world’s end
The wind sails over the water’s surface
Quietly, but surely

Act V
Even if the morrow is barren of promises
Nothing shall forestall my return
To become the dew that quenches the land
To spare the sands, the seas, the skies
I offer thee this silent sacrifice

Interpretation from loveless

2008-06-28T08:41:00.000-07:00

Prologue interpretation

The citizens conceal themselves,
Some hidden deep within the ground.
Together they keep their ear's covered,
Afraid they will hear death's sound.

The soldiers in combat are out in the open,
Praying upon their Gods for the war's end.
For although the soldiers might not live,
They pray their loved ones they'll defend.

As the thunder roars within the air,
A creature descends from up above.
With feathers as white as snow,
It's tone of sound filled with love.

All stares upon the creature cross-eyed,
Without noticing that people have changed.
Friend or foe, evil colors they turn
The dark monsters have gone deranged.

As the creature descends from the skies,
Its bewitching voice fills in the air.
The creature guides them to bliss,
Their souls taken without despair.

Interpretation from Act 1

A creature with wings flies above the clouds;
Obsession engraved within its mind.
The mortal heads upon the heavens,
Wishing the Gift of the Goddess it will find.

The present in itself is a puzzle,
A riddle many would love to solve.
Until the mystery is unraveled,
The being refuses to evolve.

As the wicked haunts him day by day,
The past torments him by the hour.
There will come a time it will depart;
Its venom this beast will empower

Death will not stop it, nor fire or rain,
For this roaming spirit knows no ease.
Its heart hardened by years and time.
Yet this spirit's purpose it will seize.

Interpretation from Act II

Man and woman lay upon the floor,
With only one intention in mind.
Kisses flutter extendedly,
As their hearts laced and intertwined.

With their self-respect missing
And their bodies quite exposed,
Numbers fly within their minds,
Trying to get themselves composed.

They'll hate their deeds in the morning;
For impulsive loving is their action.
An oldened bliss rises within them,
For brash doting is satisfaction.

Foolhardiness will bring them misfortune;
For their acts goes against regulation.
Although it is a modern way to feel,
Creators scorn upon their temptation.

A sudden gloom arises within,
Knowing the end of their bliss is nigh.
Yet the thought quickly vanishes
As the lovers let out a booming cry.

Interpretation from Act III

A lady stands in front of the bus
Eccentricity accenting her eyes.
With a flirtatious smile upon her lips,
The woman is a master of disguise.

An uneasy feeling rises within
Yet accepting this will not be the end.
For restraining unwanted emotions,
One must be deceitful to pretend.

With no method for second chances,
Entrapped within life's brutality.
Abandoning all that was given,
This woman faces reality.

To start anew, a dream everlasting
Yet awaiting its joyless new day.
One needs to feign its durability,
To forbid the spread of decay.

As the bus waits, the woman hikes its stairs;
Accepting her return will be far ahead.
When the time comes for the reappearance,
Her morality would not hang on a thread.

Interpretation from Act IV

The dawn of the new world will arrive
As soon as the Gods wills it to be.
Society is the dirt to their soil,
For we merely follow their decree.

Ideals were never there from the launch;
A world bound by deity and fate.
Our reverences are abandoned.
The planet left in an adverse state.

We seek salvation from the Gods
For having committed the unjust.
Yet our lessons are still unlearned,
Yielding results that will disgust.

The breeze coincides with the wind;
As our lives correspond with chance.
An eternity we'll have to spend.
Trying to gain a steadier stance.

FFVII Advent children

2008-06-28T07:05:00.000-07:00

I'm just a puppet after all
It's as the same as
The old you

He is Sephiroth's body of thoughts
In other words , he's like a chrysalis
Chrysalis..? A bug? He's a bug?

I'll show you..my Reunion
It's been a while , Cloud
You lost your geostigma?
How unfortunate

Just what are you hoping for?
The spirits of the deceased who carried the Geostigma..
That , with the Lifestream , guides the flow of worlds
Eventually it infringes on the planet..
What i hope for , Cloud
To use this world as a ship to sail to the darkness of space
As Mother did before me , you see
One day we will discover a new world
We will create our shining future on that ground

What will happen to this planet?
Who knows?...
That depends on you , i guess

Oho...interesting... what made you stronger?
I don't want to tell it to the likes of you!
I thought of what to give you as a gift
Shall i give you despair?
Kneel down, and show me me your figure , begging for forgiveness

What is the most important thing to you?
Would you give me the happiness of stealing it from you?
I pity you who understand nothing
There's nothing that isn't important!

Stay there for me , trapped in memories
i....
Won't become a memory

Cloud or Sephiroth
Ofc

Death note-ism

2008-06-25T09:28:00.000-07:00

This is Madness

ℓιgнт уαgαмι
Thats right , I am KIRA
So then , what will you do?
Kill me here?
Listen , I am Kira
And also the God Of the New World
In the world we live today
Kira is law and protecting order
Soon i will be justice
The hope of all mankind
You going to kill me?
Is that really okay?
In the 6 years Kira has existed
Wars have ceased
Violent criminals have almost died out...
But this world still rots
There are too many rotten people...
Somebody has to do something
At the time i obtained the notebook
I realized i had to do it!
No...Only i could do it
I knew that killing people is a crime
But there was no other way to correct things!
That was the purpose given to me!
Only i can do it...
Who else could have done it?!
To come this far??
Would anyone else be able to go on?!
Thats right
To create a new world
Only i can do it

ηαтє яινєя
No...
You are just a murderer
And this notebook is the deadliest weapon in the history of mankind
You lost to the Shinigami and the power of the notebook...
And you are mistaken , to think of becoming a God
A crazy mass murderer
That's all here is
Nothing more

ℓιgнт уαgαмι
Like they would understand....what fools

яуυк
You have lost , Light
Didn't i say in the beginning
When you die
The one who will write down your name in the notebook will be me
That is...The deal between Shinigami
And the first human to get their hands on the note in the human world
Your life is already over
You will die here
It was good while it lasted
We killed some boredom , didn't we?

∂єαтн ησтє
This note shall become the property of the human world, once it touches the ground of (arrives in) the human world.
The human who uses this note can neither go to Heaven nor Hell
All humans, without exception, eventually die.
After they die, the place they go is MU (nothingness).
Once dead, they can never come back to life.

Something for nothing

2008-06-24T06:25:00.000-07:00

There are people out there who have power
You are what you are
You cannot change history
This thing just happen
Could set me free

But why stay on one place
When you can have the whole world

I think there's something u not telling me
If you don't want to tell me everything thats fine
Just don't lie to me

Its must be hard living like this
With no family and friends

YOU THINK YOU CAN GO ON LIKE THIS FOREVER?
LIVING LIKE THIS WITH NO CONSEQUENCES?
THERE ARE ALWAYS CONSEQUENCES

You think you are the only one yeah?

They are trained to hunt us
They takes away anyone that is around us

This is where it ends
Right here right now

Why you walk?
I like walking for a change
Makes me feel normal

ANYWHERE IS POSSIBLE

2008-02-29T07:19:00.000-08:00

Dun turn away
There is a person. this person is a loner, he doesnt interact with others... making them feel he thinks he is higher than them. He supposedly has no problems, but when he is alone, he cannot escape himself and his thoughts, so to speak... no one is left to stop him.

This person. He feels that no one will ever understand him, but it is in his eyes ,no one ever really looks at him, so they dont see. But out there someone, they do,and they see the helpless side of him. But he feels no one can see or hear his silent pleading for help, so he has to go through everything alone again.

He is afraid and empty, but he shouldn't just leave everyone alone if he feels like that. Iis like the person does not want to lose this feeling.This person is speaking. He wants people to finally understand him and he does not want to spend the rest of his life all alone.

He realizes that anyone he is close to, he do try to help, but those people, he realized or he thinks were using him.